I realize it’s been about a month and a half since I’ve made an entry. Life is busy. Life is challenging. It hasn’t been a good month for me emotionally. I’ve been telling myself over & over again in repetition “Stop stressing about it.”, but it turns out that’s impossible. The more I tell myself… Continue reading To E.
So, what if this year isn’t any different than last year? Last year, I was positive that it would be “our year”. I was convinced that a positive pregnancy test would show up and we would be on our way to being parents. I was sure of it. I had a gut feeling. And that… Continue reading 2016 Might Not Be Our Year.
Well, I did it. I broke down. I cried. I screamed. I yelled. I cried some more. I mean ugly cried. I gave myself a pounding headache while I gasped for air because I was sobbing so hard. I. Lost. It. Another pregnancy announcement. And not just any pregnancy announcement. This one hurt. This one killed.… Continue reading You’re Kind Of A Dick.
I haven’t blogged since December 5th. I haven’t had the time. I haven’t had the energy. I’ve been … stressed … to say the least. I’ve been a whirlwind of emotions that just don’t seem to stop. One word stopped me in my tracks and sent my brain into overdrive. Abnormal. First, I just want… Continue reading Abnormal.
There’s a lot I wish I could say to my doctor. To my fertility specialist: 1. Despite the fact that I keep showing up and paying you, I do not want to be here. I’m sure you’re a great person and it’s nothing against you, it’s just that no part of me likes… Continue reading Just So We’re On The Same Page.
You see this? You see that face? That, ladies and gentleman, is my furbaby – Presley. My usually very happy, playful and energetic pup is in trouble and a lot of it. When we first adopted Presley, I understood within a week why people say to get a puppy before you have a baby. This… Continue reading You Can’t Put Dogs In Timeout.
I am writing this entry through cramps in a massive battle with AF. I almost cried over a Swiffer commercial and folding laundry turned into an argument with E because he doesn’t button his jeans before he folds them. Bear with me. I’m almost positive that every woman on this earth has another woman they just… Continue reading Oh, Come On!
“I want to say to you, don’t give up. There is hope. I will continue to pray for you guys, as I already have been. You will make a great mother one day. Hopefully I will be seeing you post a positive pregnancy test soon. You deserve to be a mother.” You’d think something so… Continue reading Thanksgiving & Forgiveness.
**If you are easily offended by (sac)religious writing or have a hard time reading about a woman’s personal struggle to maintain her faith in the face of infertility, then I suggest you read no further.** Dear God, Rumor has it that you love all of your children unconditionally. I sure do hope that holds true… Continue reading God & Infertility
In an earlier post, I told you I would go over what exactly my condition is and why it is so hard for me to get/stay pregnant. So, here goes. (I’ve even included pictures!) I have something called PCOS or Poly-Cystic Ovarian Syndrome. That long title boils down to abnormal ovulation and irregular cycles. But… Continue reading Let Me Explain. Pictures Included.
Mrs. None In The Oven 